Faith in a duo


Like lavender set on a tray ready for rays
Do you feel like the only source of hope
Persistent, enduring, but ending in a clash of hearts
Do you feel the need to be naturally inclined
Setting a line of holding and cheering on

A heart so forgiving
Going back to scars and clinging to wounds
Should I say a very artistic creature
One that cannot be compared to Salvator Mundi
Giving it a try over and over again
Letting in a heart over and over again

Thinking about forgetfulness
So much pain forgotten
A lot more, enduring and ignoring obvious pointers
Pointers that prove a heart taken for granted
A soul wounded with cuts unstitched
A fairy tale gone wrong, maybe a little bit more off

A nature so peaceful
A heart of gold and silver lining
A creature, so enduring!
Fighters in pain! Faith in the rain!
Faith when the storm comes!

Faith when the fire burn!
The fire of betrayal and blows unexpected
Faith when the tears roll!
The tears caused by clashes
Faith even when all hope is lost
As a creature so full of power
A creature laced in "royal linen"

A glass, maybe two, broken
Let loose on the floor in fights for understanding
A mug, maybe two, smashed
Letting go and hitting different parts of your body!

Faith! Faith in a Duo!
Faith in two hearts clashing?
Forgetting about your smile!
Letting go of your peace of mind?!

Why?
Because you've been named "perfect"
You pretend in perfection and act like you are perfect!

Faith in a Duo?
And you're left in the cold?
Sis! Don’t!
Keep faith in the faithful!

My Insecurity!✨


A mind not understanding and not conscious
To the calls, cheers and words said a couple of times
Letting loose and letting go has never been as easy as they said it would
I've seen and I've heard my sisters cry in despair

Do I need the oath to accept love or to hold on to words
Maybe I have a lot of demands in a person
Do I need stability in the mental sense
I am a little bit unsure I'll find one
Not a single soul to relate with

Due to the way it has been seen
Society has been disarmed
For a while, for a little much longer
I've been going round in circles
Most likely because I don't know where a straight line would lead to
I'm sure of the circles after all
They'll lead me back to some fun moments and more

Do I need to set standards as high as a tower
Or am I just overreacting and being a kid
Maybe, just maybe there are ears to listen
My point of view is as blunt of course
Maybe I should hold on and hope on
Fight on and wish on!

These dreams are getting me insecure
Dreams I've heard
I've seen sisters giving up, taking a bow and bouncing
Sisters tearing up and laying down lines in past tenses
All ending in "I used to fight for"
Ending in "I once had a passion for women"!

What! You mean it's all over?
All the years of tears and rants on various social media accounts?
It can't be, it shouldn't be
A journey this far and you want to fall down flat?
You started this and I would ensure you end it!
End it! Fighters don't give up!

But, my insecurity! Arghhhhhh!
I'm out!
Ohhhhhh, did I say "out"?
Noooo! I meant in!
Guess what, I'm a fighter
I won't give up!
So I'll let them know, all the partners and misandrists
Standing on lines, waiting to hit me up with hate words!

I do not fall! I stand!
When I stand, I do not bow!
And when I bow, I never smile!

Get that?
So firm! Firm in my standards and personal opinions!
I will never end on a bad note!
I know I will eventually get secure!
My army of a thousand!
I will lash and lash!
Because, when I bow, I never smile!


Official logo! Y.A.B ! Yommy Ayilara's blog!

Introducing this pretty creation
This elegant work of art
Glad and looking forward to journeys, Journeys to towns and cities unimagined
Getting ready for the ups and downs,
For the rifts and storms to come and go as the sun sets in the evening and rises at noon!



I present!
Y.A.B
Yommy Ayilara's Blog !

Life!


A feeling of consistency
Growing and moving in a body moulded
Moulded all together in imperfections
What a mind of accuracy!
A feeling of movement
A little soul connected
Connected , feeding and growing from the strength transferred

A being that has the capacity to carry life!
To nurture and to birth !
The strength and the passion
The unending love from within

You're a work of art!
Do you not know you carry life?
You have been given the power to nurture and raise another work of art
A soul breathing and connected to the breath you give!
A soul feeding and growing by the pain you feel!

Do you not feel you're special!
Who has the ability to open up and hold on
Who has the ability to endure the maximum feeling of pain
The unending feeling of love and concern
The wonderful feeling of life inside of you!

You are a work of art!
You are more than the river of Nile
You are a special piece of art
You are as fierce as a lion, as soft as fur
You are as bright as the sun

You are the perfect ray of perfection
You are the flawless rhythm of music
You are like a butterfly - a representation of hope, life and endurance
You are as rare as diamonds, a gem
As a sunflower, you are an ideal bloom
Like ruby, you are a powerful gem
Like lavender, you are elegant
Like Daisies, you are positive

More priceless than Gold
Do you not know you carry life!

In a world where I thought I was getting it right...☁

Friends turn to enemies
Hearts are broken down into pieces
I've tried a little bit, not too much, to see people
Not exactly the way they see me
Maybe a little bit more

I gave too many chances, hoping to get a lot more in return
On a whole different level, I've placed people on esteem
Wasted tears for people who didn't even care to see
Cared for people who didn't see my worth

A very soft heart, acting as hard as stone
Not hard a little bit, maybe in the emotional sense of it
So when my heart is cold, and I'm left to freeze
I write on paper with ink

I've seen a bunch of people switch up
I've been doubted
I've been discouraged
I've been disrespected
I've been humiliated

So many shattered dreams
So many hearts weak
Over trusted, I do not know how
I've been manipulated
Used to look up to people, so many people

I believed I could change a lot of people and a lot happened
I cried in the corner of my room and cleaned my tears
A so-called heart of stone cannot be left untold
I've put so much effort!

Life!
The people close to you are eventually gonna ghost
The people you expect a lot from are gonna go
You'll be left with people you didn't expect!

So many friends, I cannot even count
Smiled to so many people I cannot even remember
I trusted the close ones and I didn't get love back

It's funny that I cared for so many
Funny that out of a thousand friends I've made, only a few want to see me grow
And I'm eventually noticing this ' life' thing they've been talking about

I miss when I was young, free from worries and hatred
In the end, my lovers remain my lovers or eventually my haters!
My haters remain my haters or eventually my lovers!

Hoping for the day to come
Where my world would be free from faults!
Hoping for that perfect angle
Where the world sees me and adores me
Where the love I gave is given back!

Lol, in my world where I thought I was getting it right! I didn't know I was getting it wrong!

MY HEART!


This tiny part of me
Bearing the hate they give!

In a call for a rise
In a bid to inform
Desperation is expressed
By the noises from within
And the tears from beneath
A shallow road is crossed

What a glory you carry
After all , you're just a tiny part of my body
What a gift you are!
Stepping forward and forward

I don't want to accept! it isn't easy
It isn't easy to bear all the hate released
All the condemnations directed towards me
At some point I want to have it all
At some point I'm frustrated

Don't control me!
I can't be driven off my feet by emotions
I can't be held down because I want to feel
I can't be told to keep quiet because I don't want to get hurt by words, by people!

Ohhhhh my heart!
The way you control my rage
The way you control my emotions
Sending signals and not making me scream out loud!
I'm pushed against the wall!
You know I am pushed and suffocated!

You know there is so much more about me
You're the only reason I'm not giving up!
Cos I feel you!

Just trying to make me know as you carry the weight of a lot !
Your strength makes me strong!
If you can be so tiny and carry a lot
Then I can take all the pressure they give
All the messages I receive on how I'm fighting
And screaming for something that cannot change!

Let my head take over
And let me not think with my heart
The steps taken are steps from within
The heart beat is from within
Can a whole bunch of people see this!

I'll let my head to the thinking!
And leave the people to do the talking!
Because, I know I'm never stopping!



LONELY


A fight with no weapon
A lot of dreams spilled in place of blood
A heart bleeding but not seen
Alone and afraid fighting this war
Without assistance from the people expected
Without help or offers from the people loved

A call for people with bows and arrows
A letter of rejection after misconceptions
A mind wandering. Not knowing, getting lost
A soul out and lost in the wilderness of trust
A little girl wandering , fighting and screaming

Where? Where are the so called protectors
The so called armed fighters
The ones meant to take up this fight
The ones expected to be there and help
Where are the so called powerful and strong bones

There wasting their strength and talking
There, drinking away their strength
There thinking the strength of their fore fathers would be inherited

But my ladies are there fighting alone with no help
Building their hearts stronger than expected
Those so called armed men still smiling
Thinking they still have the strength to rule
But no. She opens her mouth !
She raises her hands and blessings come forth !
They didn't know
She was lonely
But she wasn't sleeping!

FREEDOM!


Fresh air, breathing in!Sweet fragrance
It's a heart set free
Mind open, lips moving, hands working
It's a mouth set free

After so much calmness and meekness
So much distractions and misconceptions
This lady is here on the podium
Speaking and talking life into young souls
Young hungry souls are fed

I can feel the movement of hope
So many dreams
Very few ears
So many people
A little more fear
So many distractions
A little less attention

So many depressed
A little more happy
So many girls
A little less boys
So many discriminations
A little less attention

So much hope
A little less trust
So many dreams!

Now that there's freedom!
A lot have heard!
A bunch are enlightened!

Free at last from the shaws of thorns
Thorns in place to prick my dreams
Stepping out of the shackles
The laws, rules and binds
Stepping forward to the things hoped for
The things fought for
Breathing in the same air they breathe
It doesn't hurt after all

Strength doesn't hurt after all
This fight was worth it
This war was worth the blood
This is it, their claims
It feels good after all, the laws and rules
Put up not even in a book
Laws passed on for generations
Broken down, now in pieces
Crumbled, never to be seen again

All bunches of dictators
Speaking and defending their wrongs
Getting social backup for injustice

I feel the air finally
Freedom actually feels free
No crime in speaking!

Beautiful Disaster!

Beautiful Disaster

Listen up and let me dictate to you!
Calm down and let me rule over you
Yes you look attractive but you cannot be smart!
Ohhh, never say a word, listen to my words!
Do you not know you're a beautiful disaster!

For your confidence that is tagged "over" by society
For your "stand for equality" tagged as pride in the society
For the sound of your shoes when you walk into a building, flipping, glowing and smiling !
For your being.  For how you look . for how you feel!
For talking back when you see something wrong!
For your hair , left in a fro obstructing the view of discriminators!
Do you not know you're a beautiful disaster!

For being a feminist
For being a girl in love with the growth and development of other girls around you
For wanting equality for all
For fighting in hope for the future
For writing and posting hoping that a young soul would be touched
You are called a beautiful disaster

For being passionate
For impacting and responding to the society
For wanting to make a difference!
For writing this right now!
You are being called a beautiful disaster!

They say in their horrible voices from different angles!
"Ohhhhh, a young lady with dreams?
Noooo, I want a young lady with no dreams
I want her to be beautiful, yes
I want her to be educated , yea
But she can never be ambitious!
I want her to be a beautiful disaster!"

But I say!
I am beautiful, never a disaster!
And I'm gonna speak up !
Because society is eventually gonna chill!
Less girls called beautiful but low key a disaster!
Voices up and screaming!
I don't care about society, I'm beautiful!
Never to be called a "beautiful disaster"!


Beauty with thorns! ROSE🌹

Beauty with many thorns
A heart as fierce as a lion protecting its cub
Having an unimaginable back up
An unfathomable protection
Beauty plus thorns!

Can I be touched?
No, I'm a beauty with thorns
Thorns in place to fight against wrongs
Thorns in place like shields for every storm

After being cut, cut into places not wanted, not expected !
I see my sisters and daughters taking up and fighting on
The voice I raised did not die
My girls were called beauties with thorns

For those that tried to hold me
Those that tried to tame me
My thorns are there to prick and hurt!
I will clear and fight!
I will break chains!
I would say it's a scar that cannot be cleared The scar from my thorns
I promise, you will bleed by a prick
My thorns are sharper than an iron sword

I will fight!
Fight oppressors, liars, fighters and whoever!
My thorns hurt people who try to get close to me!
People who try to touch me
They don't know I'm a beauty with thorns!

Love me and leave me
Admire me but do not touch me!
Do not call me and do not harass me else, I'll prick you!
I'm a beauty with thorns!

Take time to notice me, to respect me, to love me and to care for me!
I deserve attention and care,I cannot fight nature!
Use energy and strength to reference me!
For I am a rose, I cannot be kept!
I am like smoke from a burning house, I cannot be tamed!

In years to come, when I go
I shall leave my thorns for my daughters!
My legacy and my words!

Is my sword not my tongue?
Is it not my actions?

I do not land on my flesh!
My thorns make a base for me
I do not land flat! I land firm!
I am a beauty with thorns!
A body with firmness!
I have a tongue as sharp as sword!
And I have my girls too!
As iron sharpens iron!
Rose fall, but the thorns remain!

Depression, The rise, The climax, The fall!


Depression, The rise, the climax, and the fall!

The rise of the heart
The uncontrolled rate of pressure
Soooo many demands, Just one gender
A mind set up  high enough
A soul reaching out to things ignored
Can we sit still and let the people go in their pace
Rush and rush , until there's a rush to the grave
Judgmental? Hell no!
Rather take a nap

So many souls crying, unheard
So many dreams covered, unfulfilled
So many emotions felt, unnoticed
So much tears left, unseen

In the midst of thousands a few are heard
Leaving the rest unprotected, unloved!
Making them feel the future is not secured
So many souls crying!
Wondering and thinking!what's the point of it all!
I am a gender on my own! not a supporting actress!

 I am a person, fearfully and wonderfully made!
With dreams!innovations! ideas!
But why am I not heard ?
Why am I told to be quiet ?
Do you feel I should end this miserable life of mine?
Do you think the tears would stop if I try?
Do you think I would fight back and conquer?
All the soldiers put up against me in this war!
Life is a war! Can I defeat!
What do you think!
Why for decades! For years!
When do I stand to be recognized!

The Climax, The heart can't take it anymore
The head is full, the pressure is much
What is there in the afterlife?
Contemplation on whether to live or die
What about a long step into paradise?
Do you think this can be cleared?
Do you think I'm good enough?

Silenceeeeeee
No reply
The fall

Death !

Who are they to say you can't have it all!

Who are they ,lady!
Who are they to say you can't have it all!
You are beautiful
And like that is not enough,you are magical!

Who do they think they are!
I assure you, lady you have the right!
What are they thinking, that hate is gonna bring you down?
That you will eventually give up the race and be subject like they want you to be?

They only think! They think their opinion matters!
They really think that by a few rules and laws they would make you rethink and carry on with their shallow customs!

They don't know!!
They don't know you're ready!
You're stronger
You are strong because your pain has become your power!
Their insecurity makes them pick on you!
But you have decided , yes!
To show them your strength!

Now they all look from a distance
How great you have become
And you smile because you know some keep talking talk
And you smile again, because their words don't even matter to you anymore
You're grown now!
And you know  you are gonna speak up and help others too!
Because society is eventually gonna chill!!
Society chilled for you anyway!

Hi!

Hi!
To y'all feeling down, who society has affected sooooo much that you do not even know yourself anymore...
You are a star that has been covered with customs and society and you're there wondering if you're really meant to exist...
This is for you!
Your existence is not a mistake!
Your creation was not accidental!
Just some lines for you today!

Speak up, girl, speak!
You are strong, bold and beautiful
You can , just want it!
You are talented and your dreams refuse to die!
The world wants to see! I want to see!(lol)
You should be ambitious, what exactly are you doing!
The world awaits you!

You have the ability to shine for the world to see
You can glowwwww , they can't defeat you!
You are brave, you have been brave for so long!
You have the right! The right to want something and have it!

So I challenge you today!
Want something! Fight for it! And have it!
Speak up, girl!
Society is gonna chill!


                                   
                         
 


                                   
                         
 

WE ARE WOMEN



We're round and round
So many responsibilities upon our heads
We fight and fight
So many battles to meet their needs
We work and work
Multitasking all through the day
We cry and cry
So many tears that aren't even seen

We try and try
To meet up with standards that haven't been met
We hold on and hold on
Hold on to discriminations all over the place
We see and see
So many of us give up the race
We sit and wait
Hoping and waiting for our voices to be heard

Going round in circles with no gain
Society does not even see our pain
Laws do not even recognize our existence
We hold on , We pray and We are persistent
Waiting and fighting for change
 We are Women

SIT ON, GIRL!





Can the world see a difference
Can the people make a difference
Can she take the lead
Can she be a queen

Forever with innovations
Many inventions yet exhibited
Many ideas yet unheard
Forever wandering
Going round in circles
No exact destination

Can she speak for herself
Can she convince them with her words
Will they listen
Will they understand

They have refused to see the truth
They have refused to improve
They still do not want to accept
Nurturing wrong and evil
It is not about society anymore
It is now about insecurity

Above all, She was given a sit
And she held on to it!
Hold on to your sit, girl!

SPEAK UP GIRL



Hi, my name is Yommy Ayilara. I`m a feminist, a blogger and a law student.
People close to me know that I am a very outspoken and blunt girl. And yesss! I talk a lot for the girlssss,the words flow. I always have something to contribute and I am always ready to defend girls whenever there is a little bit of disrespect. And trust me to always win(A lawyers skills, lolllll! *wink*).
Agree with me that there is a problem on the society! There is a menace! There is discrimination! There are voices not heard! There are people crying in despair! There are women waiting for help! There are orphans and vulnerable children not cared for!
The goal is to make the world a better place! I will talk and write and preach until there is a change!
This, I promise!
So that I won`t rant how I feel to my friends and family alone, here is a blog for you!


Aims : 3R`s 
Respect , Recognition and Realization.
Respect : I used to think society has refused to respect women, not until I did some research, spoke to a number of women and realized that a number of women do not think they deserve to be respected. I mean there are a lot of shallow minded women out there and this is totally not their fault. I blame it on the society and their general upbringing.
Hey girls! Let`s get that respect we deserve!
Send a message to yommyayilara@gmail.com, I might have a few things to say make you understand you should not be treated any less.
Recognition : this is another issue, I personally think our society has just refused to recognize the existence of women generally, bothering on our ability, capacity, usefulness and strength. Okay , I am a Nigerian, and by society, I mean `Nigeria` kindaa! Butttt! This is like a `whole world` thing and I just don`t want be selfish , so yes! 
Recognition all over the world, shall we! Let's work together to create seats for women all over the world!
Realization : it saddens my heart that a lot of women and I mean a whole lotttt do not want to become anything. I mean as a human, you should be responsible for yourself. Girllll , you should have dreams, you are permitted to have a career, plan your future, contribute to the economy, contribute in the political affairs of your state, contribute in the educational sector and be blunt dear, speak up! 

And yesssss. Speak up, girl! Society is gonna chill!
I want to help a girl speak up today, I want to ensure that girls are respected, recognized and are exposed to their realization. So, like my aims, it`s the 3R`s – Respect, Recognition and Realization and of course, for the girls! (I accept mails from boys too, so if you want to talk and you're boy, feel free! You have the right to be emotional and to express yourself. I love you )
Okay, I am not a boring person ( I think, lol). Anyway, I am gonna keep my write-ups short and interesting so just take a second to like and comment. I talk a lot, so let`s chat. Tell a friend to speak up!

I love you all!


Hey girl, your pain will become your power. You have dreams, chase them! Speak up, girl!